Lonely

I suppose I should be getting used to this...it's been a few weeks now. Travis has started working for the summer (for which I'm very grateful, might I add), and that leaves me home alone quite a bit (for which I'm not so grateful). It's a different sensation for me...up until now, if we were apart, it was always me that was away from home, since I was the one who was working. I was rarely ever in our apartment without Travis...now I'm here for several hours each day by myself, and I've got to adjust to that. I'm not used to the house being so quiet.

Like I said, I'm so grateful that Travis is working and providing for us; especially after our decision for me to stay at home and just do school. It's just...ugh...I miss him. I keep telling myself that it's good practice. After all, med school is just over a year away. I'll be home full-time then, and I'm sure this new school will keep him much busier than he is now. Then comes residency....I don't even want to think about that...

Travis is meant to be a doctor. There's no doubt in my mind about that. It's something he's so invested in, and is just perfect for. And he's got his priorities straight (for which I am eternally grateful)...family comes first for him. Knowing that keeps my heart at peace.
All that being said, I know we've got a seriously long haul ahead of us. It's something we're doing our best to prepare for, but how do you reall prepare for something like this when you've never experienced anything remotely like it?

'Tis another reason I'm so behind our decision for me to not work right now. This is our time to spend together as a couple. In a year, he'll be in med school and we'll likely be starting a family...and things will change. They will be wonderful and exciting things; but still changes. We want so much to take advantage of this time that we have together. *Mush alert* We love each other so much. I'm going to skip most of this because I don't want to sound cheesy or like I'm exaggerating (which, by the way, I'm not), but we are one of those couples that's truly just completely happy when we're together. We don't need anything else. We like to go out and do other things together too, sure, but we're completely content to just sit around with one another. I love that we have that kind of connection. And, I know, that's what's going to get us through these next few years, still smiling and in love.

And that's how it is.