I suppose I should be getting used to this...it's been a few weeks now. Travis has started working for the summer (for which I'm very grateful, might I add), and that leaves me home alone quite a bit (for which I'm not so grateful). It's a different sensation for me...up until now, if we were apart, it was always me that was away from home, since I was the one who was working. I was rarely ever in our apartment without Travis...now I'm here for several hours each day by myself, and I've got to adjust to that. I'm not used to the house being so quiet.
Like I said, I'm so grateful that Travis is working and providing for us; especially after our decision for me to stay at home and just do school. It's just...ugh...I miss him. I keep telling myself that it's good practice. After all, med school is just over a year away. I'll be home full-time then, and I'm sure this new school will keep him much busier than he is now. Then comes residency....I don't even want to think about that...
Travis is meant to be a doctor. There's no doubt in my mind about that. It's something he's so invested in, and is just perfect for. And he's got his priorities straight (for which I am eternally grateful)...family comes first for him. Knowing that keeps my heart at peace.
All that being said, I know we've got a seriously long haul ahead of us. It's something we're doing our best to prepare for, but how do you reall prepare for something like this when you've never experienced anything remotely like it?
'Tis another reason I'm so behind our decision for me to not work right now. This is our time to spend together as a couple. In a year, he'll be in med school and we'll likely be starting a family...and things will change. They will be wonderful and exciting things; but still changes. We want so much to take advantage of this time that we have together. *Mush alert* We love each other so much. I'm going to skip most of this because I don't want to sound cheesy or like I'm exaggerating (which, by the way, I'm not), but we are one of those couples that's truly just completely happy when we're together. We don't need anything else. We like to go out and do other things together too, sure, but we're completely content to just sit around with one another. I love that we have that kind of connection. And, I know, that's what's going to get us through these next few years, still smiling and in love.
And that's how it is.
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Friday, June 06, 2008
Five A M
Need I say more?
...probably not the best time or way to initiate my latest creative outlet...I doubt I'll have any great epiphanies or write anything terribly clever...my mind's far too clouded for that.
So, I suppose, that means I'll have to keep it simple. Simple, I can handle...just tell it like it is (if you were looking for something more enthralling, stop reading now and go pick up Twilight).
Today is my last official day of work (skewed horribly by the fact that I've yet to receive one second of shut-eye). It's an interesting feeling...yet a welcome relief as well.
It has been an amazing five+ months since Travis and I got married. I couldn't have found a better man to build a home and a family with (more on that mushy subject in a later blog). That being said, it's been a pretty stressful five months for me as well. We moved into our new apartment the day before I returned to school full-time, and began my new part-time job. Combine all those things with learning to be a wife, and that's quite a handful. Throw in my on-again-off-again health (ugh), and forget about it! I've managed to complete the semester succesfully and get the work done that I needed too...but not in great health. And because of all these things, I feel like I haven't had the time to spend at home that I've wanted or the strength to be the wife that I've wanted to be. Don't get me wrong, I've worked on and in our home a great deal, and Travis' and my love truly deepens every day. We're so happy....but I want to make it even better(!).
It was with that realization a few weeks ago that we decided together that I should quit. I'm taking six credits on campus this summer, along with a total of eight independent study credits that need to be completed by October. That's enough of a commitment itself.
For me, Travis comes first. I want to be with him and be there for him any time he needs or wants me. In order for me to do that I also need to be in the best health I can be, which I can't if I'm just continuing to stretch myself so thin.
This is the right decision for us. As soon as it was made, a giant weight was lifted . I can go to school, do my homework, and then be home with my husband. I won't have to worry about other things. This change will better enable me to be the wife I want to be.
Combine that with the amazingly wonderful husband that I've already got, and I couldn't ask for more.
And that's how it is.
...probably not the best time or way to initiate my latest creative outlet...I doubt I'll have any great epiphanies or write anything terribly clever...my mind's far too clouded for that.
So, I suppose, that means I'll have to keep it simple. Simple, I can handle...just tell it like it is (if you were looking for something more enthralling, stop reading now and go pick up Twilight).
Today is my last official day of work (skewed horribly by the fact that I've yet to receive one second of shut-eye). It's an interesting feeling...yet a welcome relief as well.
It has been an amazing five+ months since Travis and I got married. I couldn't have found a better man to build a home and a family with (more on that mushy subject in a later blog). That being said, it's been a pretty stressful five months for me as well. We moved into our new apartment the day before I returned to school full-time, and began my new part-time job. Combine all those things with learning to be a wife, and that's quite a handful. Throw in my on-again-off-again health (ugh), and forget about it! I've managed to complete the semester succesfully and get the work done that I needed too...but not in great health. And because of all these things, I feel like I haven't had the time to spend at home that I've wanted or the strength to be the wife that I've wanted to be. Don't get me wrong, I've worked on and in our home a great deal, and Travis' and my love truly deepens every day. We're so happy....but I want to make it even better(!).
It was with that realization a few weeks ago that we decided together that I should quit. I'm taking six credits on campus this summer, along with a total of eight independent study credits that need to be completed by October. That's enough of a commitment itself.
For me, Travis comes first. I want to be with him and be there for him any time he needs or wants me. In order for me to do that I also need to be in the best health I can be, which I can't if I'm just continuing to stretch myself so thin.
This is the right decision for us. As soon as it was made, a giant weight was lifted . I can go to school, do my homework, and then be home with my husband. I won't have to worry about other things. This change will better enable me to be the wife I want to be.
Combine that with the amazingly wonderful husband that I've already got, and I couldn't ask for more.
And that's how it is.
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